The process has begun, so I am thinking I will stop thinking, reading, exploring about Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and even Dissociative Identity Disorder. I will wait until I receive a diagnosis, and then I might start thinking again.
I will try and stop thinking about me all the time, because that seems to be the only place my mind can get to. The counsellor (I don’t even know if that’s the right name) asked me “Do you have flashbacks”. It took me aback. Not flashbacks as such, but my mind, when not formulating a precise active thought or engaged in very enthralling reading will ramble away in images and memories from the dawn of my memory to just yesterday.
For the second time today I left the fire on under some pans, I could have set the house on fire. My memory is getting worse and worse by the day, and my lack of concentration is stupendous.
Until I get my diagnosis I am going to try and focus on the house, the kids, and finishing off my work before all words leave me completely.
Then I’ll think upon what to do next.
Except of course I may well change my mind tonight!
Bye for now,